Archive | February, 2012

Trying to remember my dreams in the morning is like trying to remember where I put my pants. Only, usually, I eventually find my pants.

28 Feb

I do admit that I lose my pants quite frequently. Not like, ‘omg, my pants fell off’, obviously. I also tend to misplace my shoes and my bras. See, I’m not the kind of person who changes in the same place all the time, I’m pretty forgetful sometimes, and I swear, people move my stuff when I’m not looking just to fuck with me.

Also, this happens to me when I’m sober. See, if I was forever drinking, it would seem typical and expected to not be able to find these things. However, I don’t do that, which makes the matter all that more complicated and weird. Like, as of right now, I know where my shoes are ((I did have to think about it for a second)) and I know where my pants are…but I have no clue where my bra is. I don’t remember where I took it off, and I’ve no idea where it is. I know I haven’t seen it in…a few days. ((I haven’t left the house, so I haven’t needed it. Don’t judge.))

Well anyway, this post isn’t about bras specifically…Oddly, the last 4 days or so, I’ve been sleeping pretty good. ((‘Cept for that night that there was three of us in a bed and G. kept kicking…)) But, I’ve been dreaming, it feels like, all night long. Before, when I’d dream all night, I’d wake up feeling really tired. Lately tho, it’s not like that. I wake up and feel pretty good.

I was laying in bed this morning, trying to remember the dream I had last night…I could see part of it, but I was thinking ‘what in the hell is that about?’ and I couldn’t put it into words if I tried. Shit, right now, I can’t even remember what I was thinking about this morning. :\ Typical. None of the dreams I’ve been having lately have been scary, which is good. I wake up and think, ‘oh, that was pretty good’ and I can remember bits and pieces for a minute or so, then, they’re gone. Kinda frustrating…especially when I know there was a familiar face in the dream. ((like Hugh Laurie, for example. He shows up quite often, and that’s just fine by me))

It’s back to work for me today…which is sort of welcome. It’ll be nice to get out and do something. Mind, I have no problem spending a day playing video games. No problem at all.

The morning so far has been pretty standard as far as mornings around here go…I need another cup of coffee, and the kids are at school. Mac is eating rice krispies while watching ‘Cry-Baby’. ((She was watching this movie a few times a day not too long ago…then, she switched to Barbie movies, then, she switched to ‘The New Adventures of Pippi Longstocking’. Oh, I love that movie, but she was watching it back to back, every day, for almost a solid week. ))

I got to watch ‘Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets’ yesterday…then, I put on ‘Order of the Phoenix’ which I didn’t see the end of ((kind of good, since I always cry when Sirius dies)) because I opted to shower…then, I put on ‘Half Blood Prince’, but fell asleep about 45 minutes into it. I don’t know why. I didn’t feel tired, and I had drank a huge iced coffee…but I woke up sometime later, and the tv was off and I was like ‘wtf?’.

I don’t like having a post without at least one image…so, I’ll add one…but it’s not an image of mine. ((I have nothing new…)) It’s my new wallpaper.

I’m not crazy about the blue tint, so I might make it b&w. For now though, it’s fine. :)

I guess I’ll end this here, cause it’s only 8:20am, and I’ve really nothing interesting to say.

Until…I dunno.
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I was in a Harry Potter mood yesterday… and other stuff I was reminded of. Also, this blog is *very* long, as I get easily sidetracked.

27 Feb

((note: further down in the post, there are some images, and these images are NOT mine. If there’s a name on the image, I will credit and link to the owner. If not, please don’t get mad at me. I’m not trying to steal someone elses stuff… Some of the images are shots that were taken before I was even born… ))

I hate that most times, I blog in my head…usually when I can’t sleep, or I’m trying to fall asleep. I usually get the first paragraph done, and then when I sit down to actually write it, I can’t remember a single thing I had thought of. Case in point: last nite. I’m pretty sure it had something to do with the kids, but I’m not 100% certain of that now. I need to start going to sleep with a notebook and a pen or something. Then I’ll be sure to not forget.

Anyway…so, Harry Potter. I mentioned before that my books ((from 1-5)) are closed up until Spring. :\ The only books that are still out are 6 & 7. I’ve just finished 6 ((again)) and now I’m onto 7 ((for the like, 80th time.)) Well, it’s been a loooooong time since I’ve watched all the movies. I have them all on DVD, and some of them I’ve got digital copies. Which is a good thing, because my physical copy of the Sorcerers Stone is my original. I mean, I bought it as soon as it came out on DVD, and I never bought another copy. Of course, the disc is scratched to hell, so the only way I can watch it is on my laptop. I decided yesterday to take all my digital copies, and put them on a DVD, so I could watch them again. ((Something I’ve been putting off for, oh, ever.)) Well, I’m impatient, and only burned the first movie. The kids and I watched it after dinner, and it was awesome, because it’s been so long since we’ve watched it. I was going to hook up my laptop to the tv so we could watch Chamber of Secrets, but that didn’t happen…Instead, I grabbed my ‘Goblet of Fire’ dvd.

My Mum bought me that for Christmas the year it came out…and I saw it in theatres, too. But, it’s the worst Harry Potter movie in the whole series. I remember being in the theatre…sooooo excited. It was me, my sister, my Mum, Dad, and W. Five minutes into it, I was like ‘WTF?!?!’ Since I’ve owned the dvd, I think I’ve watched it, maybe 6 times. That movie is like a friggin trainwreck. I love the book, but the movie was just such a waste of time.

I didn’t even finish watching it, actually. I went to bed, which was more exciting than the movie.

Now, I haven’t been on Facebook too much lately. ((Mostly because I was told that someone complained about my language there…not sure exactly what they’re talking about, of course…)) But, I was there this morning, because a picture my cousin had put up caught my eye.

I’m originally from Worcester Massachusetts. I was born there, and lived there most of my life. ((We moved occasionally out of the city…once to Spencer, once to Millbury, once to Westboro and to Shrewsbury when I was really little)) We moved from Worcester in 2001 ((we’d lived in Greenwood Village for almost 10 years)) and went to Dudley, where we lived for another 10 years. ((Then, of course, 3 years ago, we moved up here to Maine…))

Anyway…when I lived in Worcester, I both loved it and was bored with it at the same time. When I lived in Dudley, I didn’t go into the city much…But man, now that I’m here in Maine, I wonder how I thought it was boring there…I digress, again. My cousin put up a bunch of pictures of places in Worcester that I’ve been to…some of these places are no longer there, which makes it even more, what’s the word? Not weird, but like ‘wow. I was there…and that place hasn’t been around in fucking AGES!’.

First…Worcester State hospital.

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image from here: http://www.panoramio.com/photo/4103870

I used to drive by here all the time. My Dad would tell me that he spent time there ((really, Dad? I don’t know if he was serious or not…)) and I was always scared of it when I was younger. Then, I got older, and went there one time with a couple friends of mine. By that time I was like 21, and not scared…We went up there at night, not to break in, but just to look around the grounds. I saw no ‘No Trespassing’ signs, and we weren’t there to cause trouble…But, we walked around for a bit, and it was a bit creepy. A cop showed up ((big surprise)) and told us we weren’t supposed to be there. We told him we didn’t know, and he said it was ok, we just weren’t supposed to be there after dark. We didn’t get in trouble. We just sat in the parking lot after that, on the hood of the car, smoking cigarettes. I went back there afterwards, in the fall, after I was married. In the daytime. It wasn’t creepy, and it was then that I found out that the building was actually being used for something…although, I still don’t know exactly what for. ((I could google it and find out, but I don’t feel like it at the moment…))

Then, of course…if you’re a New Englander, you’ve probably heard of Spider Gates cemetery. My Mum used to tell me stories about that place when I was younger…Just stuff like how she’d gone there, both at night and during the day, and she never saw anything scary and stuff like that. When I was older 16 or 17, I finally went there. Actually, I went there many times, most times, it was during the day, and once, I went at night. I didn’t think it was scary.


image from here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/bunkosquad/487526332/

It was a cemetery, and I’ve been in some that were scarier. Even the time I went at night ((again, not to cause trouble…just to see what it was like)) I wasn’t scared. Well, of the cemetery, I wasn’t. I was more scared of what was in the dark… What’s that line from ‘Clownhouse?’

Casey: “The dark is scary if you run through it”
Randy: “Will you grow up Casey. What’s out there that you think is gonna grab us? Just cause it’s dark out doesn’t mean there’s something out there”
Casey: “It means you can’t tell if there is”

((those might not be the exact words…I just had the movie on to quote them, but Mac is watching Coraline at the same time and talking to me and I’m not the best multi-tasker around))

Anyway, that line occurred to me while out there. There’s lots of stories about that cemetery, ghost stories and all that fun stuff. I can say though, that in all the times I was there, I never saw anything remotely out of the ordinary. Not a single thing. However, Google shows this at the top result when searching for ‘Spider Gates cemetery’ for a web page found on boudillion.com This site mentions 8 gates. Maybe I’m retarded and/or blind, but I don’t think I saw 8 gates. Maybe I wasn’t looking hard enough?

Let’s see…what else…oh yeah! omg. When I was like 7 or so ((my sister was about 1 at the time…)) there was this doll that I just *had* to have. We lived in Westboro then…We only lived there for about 2 years, but it was probably the one place we lived that was my absolute favorite. We lived on the Quick Farm. ((I don’t even know if the place is still there…)) It was set in an apple orchard, and owned by the Quick family. I know the wife was, well, my Grandmother called her ‘Winnie’ but I believe her name was Winnifred. And her husbands name was, I don’t remember. Well, her and my Grandmother were very close, and my Grandmother worked for her for a long, long, long time. The Quick’s owned our house ((which had living quarters, and an attached big-ass barn…also there was a store! Seriously! If you came out of our inside door, went through the barn and then down a hall, you came into the country store! It was closed at the time we lived there, but it wasn’t empty. It was full of merchandise, including these huge green leather sofas ((which are still to this day in my Uncle Steven’s house)), glass display cases full of jellies…even an old horse drawn carriage. ((minus the horse)) Outside in front of the store, there was this huge fake cow. Down in behind our house, was a horse stable. Google isn’t showing me any pictures of the barn, which is slightly frustrating :\

I take that back. I found a picture of the cow! You’ll be taken off-site to see it, accompanied by a news article. Anyway, we rented the place from the Quicks, then, they were selling the property, and some guy who owned Casa Builders bought it, raised our rent to some astronomical fucking amount ((he wanted us out. He had plans to develop the area…which is sad, because it was apple orchard all around…and it seems to me now, that the entire area has been built up with homes :( )) and we had to move. But, it was the funnest ((not a word, is it?)) place I’d ever lived. Across our driveway, there was this little shed-type building ((I never went in it)) but behind it, there was a small pond…I remember skating on it when I was little, and falling so many times that my knees were black and blue… I got my first dog when I lived there, a Shepherd/Lab mix ((black and white)) that I named Lucky. He fell through the barn floor once and ended up in some part of the building I didn’t know existed. We got him out eventually, through the big ass garage that was also attached to the barn. I think about that place now, and could kick myself for not properly exploring it. The live-able part of the building was super cool…It was only three rooms, but it was a *big* three rooms. The kitchen & living room were basically like one big room, separated by beams, the bathroom, had two toilets and two sinks. ((With a divider between the toilets)) One one side, there was a shower, on the opposite side, a bath tub. And then there was the bedroom, which was bigger than the whole first floor of the house I live in now. I was told that before we lived there, the living quarters had been occupied by apple pickers. It was so big, I used to ride my bike in there. My Mum had an area for her and my Dad’s room, and I had an area of my own. ((Once, she had these huge curtains that she managed to put up, so we had a bit of privacy…Then, my sister came along, and her crib was there too…and there was always room. Omg, was there always room… There’s a news article here, but the year that they say Venincasa bought the place is wrong. We lived there in 1985, and he didn’t buy it till we had been there for a bit. You can read about it here: you’ll be taken off-site again. I know my grandmother has pictures, so maybe sometime I can get her to send them to me and I’ll scan them and get them up in here.

((I know, I was talking about a doll…I got sidetracked…I’m almost done)) That reminds me of the house that the Quick’s lived in at the time. They don’t live there anymore, and last I knew, they had given it, or sold it to, their daughter Sally ((at least, I think she was their daughter…I know her name was Sally, who had a daughter named Gina)). I’ve always called it a mansion, and I think it was, only, it might of just seemed that way cause I was little. It was a big, white house, and it was there that my Grandmother stayed frequently, as a caretaker, more or less, when the Quicks were out of town. ((They owned a house in Boca Raton Florida, too, at times, taking my Grandmother and Grandfather with them for weeks at a time in the winter)) Luckily, my Gramma invited us to stay over there with her!! This house was absolutely *amazing*!! I won’t go into detail about it just yet…I’m waiting for some information from my Grandma…and I’m already way off topic.

So, the doll…It was called a ‘My Child Doll’, and I just *had* to have one. ((Just found out that there’s a site for them?!?!?! The My Child Workshop )) My Dad suggested Capitol Toy, in Worcester. So, that’s where we went. ((Have I mentioned before that I am scared of clowns?))


((images from http://www.flickr.com/photos/usonian/24106499/))

omfg. Thank god the store was closed down. I was disappointed, but I remember telling my parents how I was afraid of the building. I found one at Ames, and the whole point was to get a doll that looked like you…and they didn’t have one like that, but I got one anyway. ((A blond, I think)) She was pretty great, but then my dog ((Lucky)) got a hold of her, and him being a puppy, well, he chewed her up…I don’t think I played with her much after that.

Fast forward a bit…To when Child World was the toy store of choice. Also, it was 5 minutes from my Aunt’s house, walking, so I went there a lot.

((not the actual building I used to visit…the one I went to was in Shrewsbury MA, where now, it’s a Michael’s))

At the time, Debbie Gibson was popular with her single ‘Electric Youth’. I was too young to wear makeup and all that, but some years later, I was at Spags with my best friend Kelly. We used to love browsing around there, especially the perfume & makeup ((and books, for me))…


((image from spags.org))

They had the ‘Electric Youth’ perfume. I don’t remember now what it smelled like, but I bought it anyway cause I liked the bottle.


((image from mamapop.com))

I guess it smelled ok, but my favorite perfumes then were Tribe, and Malibu Musk.

I mostly bought those two at Caldor. Again, not around anymore, but at the time, it was in the Auburn Mall. Sometimes, I’d get Malibu Musk at The Worcester Fair. I think that was probably my favorite store ever. I can’t find pictures of it online, but it was awesome, and also just down the street from my house. ((That was when we lived in Greenwood Village))

Holy crap! It’s taken me a few hours to write this…all this, stemming from a picture I saw that threw me down memory lane. Ahhh…I didn’t have anything else to get done anyway.

However, Mac wants to use my computer, so I guess that’s my cue to go.

Until…well, when I get the information I’m waiting for from my Gramma…
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and so, vacation comes to an end.

26 Feb

I have to say, it’s not been the most, eventful vacation. Which is fine with me. I don’t need to have something super awesome happen. I prefer things to be quiet and laid back anyway. One thing I’m thankful for, is that the days seemed, at times, to go on and on and on…Like, seriously, we’d wonder, ‘Is it really only *that* time?’. Considering the fact that we usually complain that vacations just fly by, that was a welcome bonus :)

But now it’s Sunday. Back to the routine of early dinner, and showers and all that fun stuff.

A few days ago…oh, Thursday…W. and I took a walk down to the store, cause it was relatively nice out. The store owner mentioned that we should enjoy the weather that day, because we were due for 4-7 inches of snow that nite. I was like ‘what?!?!’. ((Mind, I hadn’t been online in a couple days, so I had no idea what the weather was going to be like)) Sure enough, we woke up Friday morning to a lot of new snow :\ It wasn’t bad outside, though. Snow yes, but it was mild. I opted to walk to the store again ((I only buy one pack of cigarettes at a time)) and W. was going to his friends house ((which is on the way down)) and G. wanted to come with me, too. It actually started snowing again on our walk back up the hill. But it wasn’t too bad. Chilly when the wind blew, but otherwise good walking weather.

One thing that I did accomplish over this vacation…was I played a lot of video games :) I played straight through Ratchet and Clank Future: A Crack in Time. And I started a new file on ‘Future: Tools of Destruction’. We also hooked up the PS2, and I played some Sly Cooper. ((The first one…we have all of them, but that’s my favorite)) We also played some of the very first Ratchet. We also found that most of our PS2 games don’t really want to work :( This spring, when we can properly look through all the stuff we have packed away in the shed, we’re going to hook up the N64. W. and I have been dying to play Banjo Kazooie. We *sooooooo* love that game!! We also have Mario 64 ((uh, if I can find it)) that I think Mac would love to play. In the past month or so, she’s really gotten into playing the New Super Mario Bros. on the DS. She’s really good at it, too!

Last nite, L. went to bed early, and W. was playing NBA2K11…Mac, G. and I were upstairs, first playing Yahtzee ((L. had been playing too, but then she got mad and didn’t want to play another game…)) and then reading together. We were all getting tired, when G. said ‘Let’s play ‘I-Spy’ ((not the book one…just, y’know, when you look around a room and then say the ‘I spy something…’ Right, so we did that for a bit, and then I said ‘Ok, let’s change the rules a bit. Instead of just saying ‘I spy something…’ and leaving it at that, let’s give three clues about the thing we’re talking about’. G. said fine, and Mac said ‘what?’. So, I tried to explain it to her like this:

“Ok, so, let’s pretend you were going to pick…that peacock. You’d say something like ‘it’s green, and it’s plastic, and it’s an animal…it’s a bird, I mean. But, you don’t tell us what is it you picked, you only tell us *about* it. Do you understand?”

Mac: “Yup.”

G. went first…and I don’t remember now if we guessed what she said…Then, it was Mac’s turn.

“Ok. My thing is…red, and you put it in a pan to make, it’s sauce. Then, you add the eggs…but you take out the shells, cause the shells are yucky, and you mix it.”

Me: “-Tomatoes? wait, what?”

Mac: “And you put in cheese and seasoning mix.”

Me: “scrambled eggs?”

Mac: “YES!!”

G: “What about tomatoes?”

Mac: “You don’t put tomato sauce in scrambled eggs”

Me: “Huh? You’re confusing me. Is it scrambled eggs or tomatoes?”

Mac: “Scrambled eggs!”

Me: “It’s supposed to be something in *this* room”

Mac: “Oh. Ok!”

Me: o_O

We went a few more times, and then, it was Mac’s turn again.

Me: “Now, pick out something that’s in this room, but don’t tell us what it is. Just tell us what it looks like.”

Mac: “Ok. It’s red…and this big ((she held her fingers about an inch apart)) and…it’s red.” ((and she said something else too, but I don’t remember what it was.))

I’m looking around the room like ‘wtf?’ Thinking that she was probably just making something up. G. guess her 6 times, and so did I…and then we were both thinking that Mac was just making up this crazy stuff, and I said that I gave up. Mac points to the wall.

Mac: “Right there. The thumb tack!”

And we both look, and sure as shit, there was a thumbtack! G. and I were both like ‘holy!’, cause we really thought that she was just pulling stuff out of her ass…She was for real though, and it was pretty funny :)

After we got sick of I-Spy, we played rock-paper-scissors. The first round, we all got something different…it might of been G. had scissors, I had paper, and Mac had rock. So, G. cut my paper, and then I covered Mac’s rock with my paper, and I said to Mac, “ok, not you have to crush G.’s scissors”.

Mac: “What?” ((and she was looking around the room like ‘rocks what?’))

Then me and G. start laughing…and now Mac is looking *soooo* confused…

Mac: “What? What do I do???”

Then G. and I totally lost our shit and laughed till we cried. Mac started laughing too. When we had enough breath to actually talk, we explained it to her and she was like ‘Ohhhhhhh!!’ with that wide-eyed expression of ‘I get it now!’.

I think like 20 minutes after that, we were asleep! All of us, in one bed. I would be lying through my teeth if I said that G. wasn’t a kicker in her sleep. She must’ve woke me up about a billion times…but not cause she was always kicking me. She’d move a bit, and I’d wake up, because of the place that Mac was sleeping, I kept worrying that G. was going to kick her in the face. She didn’t. It was also super hot up there…it’s usually pretty warm up there anyway, but with three of us in a bed, it was only that much warmer. We hardly even needed to cover up, which was a welcome change from it being on the chilly side.

I felt like I had slept late, but when I came downstairs, I found it was only 7:30. The fact that it was sunny out, threw me. Kids are playing video games now that their rooms are clean, and I’ve got the slow cooker on with the beginning stages of a beef stew. The house already smells pretty good :) I love using the slow cooker, but then I walk around hungry all day cause it smells so damn good.

I don’t have any other images right now to get up in here…and I haven’t added anything new to the photoblog. I might put two pictures up over there ((they’ve already been added to this blog…)) unless I did it already. I don’t remember.

Anyway…I guess that’s it.
Until…who knows…

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